I don’t feel so happy today. There are so many things have happened and I began to wonder. Mostly it’s about my own future. The classic issues, on what I want to be, what I should do to get better life and how to get rich. This morning I found out that there are so many things that I still don’t know, especially in engineering discipline. Yeah, it’s true that I can be considered a fresh graduate, as I don’t have much working experience. But is that really an acceptable excuse?
Sometimes I wonder am I a fast learner or not. I think I am, but somehow I get the feeling that some people over here would have different opinion. At least my previous mentor thought that I could do work well and produce admirable results. But that was in different environment and circumstances. Over here, the competition and pressure is unbelievable! I got to always to be few steps ahead and get ready for any incoming workload. If I don’t, then people will start talking. Speaking of which, these “talking- behind-your-back” activities are definitely popular in any offices. It can get you demoralize and crush your enthusiasm to do work. I just wonder how much longer till it gets to me. I hope it won’t.
I think I better think carefully, and decide on my future wisely. I can’t say that I’m getting fed up already working as an engineer, but I just feel that there’s something more interesting for me out there. Oh God, how I wish I know what it is right now..
I wonder since when I couldn’t speak English well. This morning I’ve been trying to contact DID Sarawak, and to my surprise, I found it so difficult for me to communicate with the officer! DID Sarawak have a lot of Chinese staff and obviously their Malay language is a bit different than ours in Peninsular. That’s why English is the best language to be used when dealing with them.
I remembered my experience with those Australians during our trip to Sarawak few months ago. I rarely talked to them and speak whenever it’s necessary only. I know that’s bad and very unhealthy. That’s why I need to practice more and be brave enough to talk to them. Will I get the chance to travel with them again? Only time will tell (and the financial condition of Baleh project of course!).
Hey, I’m quite impressed here. This time I managed to write something proper as an entry. Usually it’s only simple story, and pointless issue, but today I really came out with a pretty good piece of work. Maybe it’s because of the Tun Dr Mahathir’s blog. I read it yesterday and I must say that I kinda miss that old fella as our PM. Well, don’t get me wrong, as he may not be total 100% clean and right all the time, but his thoughts and ideas are definitely invaluable. During his time as PM, the government looked strong and any conflicts and issues were well addressed. Compared to the current government, they have lost five states on the last General Election... What else can I say? Of course this is my personal view, and as Malaysian, everyone is entitled to have one, right?
I think that’s all for today. I’m not in the mood to do my work. That’s why I wrote this entry. Hopefully I will continue to write and express my views through this blog. Till then, jazakumullahu khairan kathira.
Sometimes I wonder am I a fast learner or not. I think I am, but somehow I get the feeling that some people over here would have different opinion. At least my previous mentor thought that I could do work well and produce admirable results. But that was in different environment and circumstances. Over here, the competition and pressure is unbelievable! I got to always to be few steps ahead and get ready for any incoming workload. If I don’t, then people will start talking. Speaking of which, these “talking- behind-your-back” activities are definitely popular in any offices. It can get you demoralize and crush your enthusiasm to do work. I just wonder how much longer till it gets to me. I hope it won’t.
I think I better think carefully, and decide on my future wisely. I can’t say that I’m getting fed up already working as an engineer, but I just feel that there’s something more interesting for me out there. Oh God, how I wish I know what it is right now..
I wonder since when I couldn’t speak English well. This morning I’ve been trying to contact DID Sarawak, and to my surprise, I found it so difficult for me to communicate with the officer! DID Sarawak have a lot of Chinese staff and obviously their Malay language is a bit different than ours in Peninsular. That’s why English is the best language to be used when dealing with them.
I remembered my experience with those Australians during our trip to Sarawak few months ago. I rarely talked to them and speak whenever it’s necessary only. I know that’s bad and very unhealthy. That’s why I need to practice more and be brave enough to talk to them. Will I get the chance to travel with them again? Only time will tell (and the financial condition of Baleh project of course!).
Hey, I’m quite impressed here. This time I managed to write something proper as an entry. Usually it’s only simple story, and pointless issue, but today I really came out with a pretty good piece of work. Maybe it’s because of the Tun Dr Mahathir’s blog. I read it yesterday and I must say that I kinda miss that old fella as our PM. Well, don’t get me wrong, as he may not be total 100% clean and right all the time, but his thoughts and ideas are definitely invaluable. During his time as PM, the government looked strong and any conflicts and issues were well addressed. Compared to the current government, they have lost five states on the last General Election... What else can I say? Of course this is my personal view, and as Malaysian, everyone is entitled to have one, right?
I think that’s all for today. I’m not in the mood to do my work. That’s why I wrote this entry. Hopefully I will continue to write and express my views through this blog. Till then, jazakumullahu khairan kathira.
