won't go home without you..

I asked her to stay but she wouldn't listen
She left before I had the chance to say
Oh
The words that would mend the things that were broken
But now it's far too late, she's gone away

Every night you cry yourself to sleep
Thinking: "Why does this happen to me?
Why does every moment have to be so hard?"
Hard to believe that

It's not over tonight
Just give me one more chance to make it right
I may not make it through the night
I won't go home without you

The taste of your breath, I'll never get over
The noises that you made kept me awake
Oh
The weight of things that remaind unspoken
Built up so much it crushed us everyday

Every night you cry yourself to sleep
Thinking: "Why does this happen to me?
Why does every moment have to be so hard?"
Hard to believe that

It's not over tonight
Just give me one more chance to make it right
I may not make it through the night
I won't go home without you

It's not over tonight
Just give me one more chance to make it right
I may not make it through the night
I won't go home without you

Of all the things I felt but never really shown
Perhaps the worst is that I ever let you go
I should not ever let you go, oh oh oh

It's not over tonight
Just give me one more chance to make it right
I may not make it through the night
I won't go home without you

It's not over tonight
Just give me one more chance to make it right
I may not make it through the night
I won't go home without you
And I won't go home without you
And I won't go home without you
And I won't go home without you

demit

frustrated.waiting to explode...

Ruud warning over Capello's defensive tactics

Ruud Gullit insists Fabio Capello, the favourite for the England manager's job, is a winner but warned fans he does not play 'for the beauty of the game'.

Capello is reported to be flying into London today for talks with the Football Association with a view to succeeding Steve McClaren as national team boss.

Los Angeles Galaxy manager Gullit, who played under Capello at AC Milan in the 1990s, is confident the 61-year-old Italian will be a success as England boss but does not expect it to be easy on the eye.

'He doesn't play for the beauty of the game but to win,' the Dutchman said.

'You don't see him laughing much - he's moody. But he knows what he wants. You have to go his way or you will get in trouble. He screams at you.

'You need to be well drilled to play for him - very disciplined - and you certainly don't fool around with him, that's for sure.'

Gullit insists the initial focus for Capello would be making sure England are watertight defensively.

'Italians are all about looking good, defending your reputation. When you've got that you become very hard to beat. If you become that clinical, you don't even have to play well to win - that's how come they have won so many championships.'

AC Milan midfielder Clarence Seedorf, who played under Capello at Real Madrid when they won the Spanish league title in 1997, concurs with Gullit that the Italian is a no-nonsense boss.

'He's a tough guy, very straight. He's very dedicated. Of course it has been quite a while since I worked with him in Madrid, but I think he has much more experience now than 10 years ago,' Seedorf said.

'He was then already one of the best coaches I've ever had.'

Seedorf confirmed Capello had told him he was very interested in doing the England job.

'I was talking with him only two weeks ago about this possibility and I know he sees it as a very interesting challenge,' he told Radio Five Live.

'England has quality players but results haven't really shown everybody the potential of the team. (Capello) knows that and it's a challenge for him, to go where the results are lacking and make those great players a good team.'

Seedorf admits the biggest test for Capello will be making the transition from club management to the more hands-off role of an international coach.

'It's going to be a challenge for him also because he has always been able to communicate and train every day with the players, so it is going to be very different,' he said.

'One of his best qualities is getting the very best out of each player, even if he is not playing well. He is very specific in what he wants and very clear on what he wants from each player and sometimes he will push you to your limits.

'He has always asked 100% of the players once you are on the field. He is very straight, very clear with the players. He will work with those who are committed and professional players.

'He would rather have less quality but committed players than quality players who are not committed. He has been experienced (in working with) great players and still being able to get the best out of them.'

Giggs: No need for United to panic

The unexpected defeat at the Reebok Stadium, coupled with Arsenal's continuing good form, means United head into Monday's clash with Fulham five points adrift of the Gunners.

Although the season has not yet reached its midway point, Sir Alex Ferguson's men are aware there is no room for further failure - at least until December 16 when United square up to Liverpool at Anfield on the same day as Arsenal host Chelsea in what is already being billed as 'blockbuster Sunday'.

But Giggs revealed there has been no tension in the Red Devils camp, just a clear-headed analysis of what went wrong at Bolton - and the usual steely determination to put it right.

"Outside the club, a lot is made of it when we lose a game," he said.

"But inside there are no alarm bells.

"You have to be realistic - everyone is going to lose occasionally. One game is nothing. It is when you lose two or three on the bounce that you should really start worrying."

Although it is not totally unheard of for Fulham to win at Old Trafford - they last managed it in 2003 - United have triumphed in their last five meetings. With Wayne Rooney set to return, they are strong favourites to extend that sequence to six.

With no internationals to disrupt the fixture list until February and top spot in their Champions League group confirmed already, the Red Devils effectively have a two-month run in which to flex their title muscles.

It is a time of the year when United have traditionally been at their strongest - and Giggs, veteran of all previous nine championship triumphs under Ferguson, is hoping history repeats itself.

"This is a time of year when we have won a lot of games in the past," he recalls.

"The last international break was not too good for us - because we were brilliant against Blackburn before it and definitely were not against Bolton immediately afterwards.

"Like any team, if we are in good form, we want the games to come thick and fast.

"We hope we can get our form going into the Christmas period again, because there are four or five games within 10 or 11 days - with a lot of points to be won. We don't want to be dropping any."

Giggs is among a clutch of players expecting a recall after starting last Tuesday's win over Sporting Lisbon on the bench.

Carlos Tevez, Wes Brown and Owen Hargreaves are in the same situation - while Rooney has stepped up his training in recent days after recovering from an ankle injury, leaving Ferguson confident the England forward will end a three-match absence.

Apart from scoring 10 goals in 10 matches for club and country immediately before the freak training-ground injury which left him on crutches, Rooney has also gelled with Tevez.

For a creative player such as Giggs, having both men available is a major plus.

"Wayne and Carlos have struck up a really good partnership - so with Wayne coming back and Louis Saha fit again, the manager has a lot of options," said Giggs.

"It is great to have Wayne back. Before he got injured, he was on an excellent run of form. He is a quality player and he is always a threat.

"The key for us is to perform to our highest level; if teams come to Old Trafford and we are not at our best, it only encourages them.

"If we are playing at our best, playing at a high tempo, as Manchester United can, we will cause teams problems and get the games won. It is as simple as that."

Sir Bobby draws up England shortlist of five

Former England manager Sir Bobby Robson will recommend a list of five men for the national team job to the Football Association - and none of them are English.

Robson is among a group of senior figures in the domestic game who will be consulted by FA chief executive Brian Barwick over who should succeed Steve McClaren after the team's failure to qualify for Euro 2008.

He reveals a five-man list in his Mail On Sunday column, consisting of Aston Villa's Northern Irish boss Martin O'Neill, Russia's Dutch coach Guus Hiddink, former Chelsea manager Jose Mourinho, Italian Fabio Capello and Frenchman Gerard Houllier, most recently at Lyon.

Writing in the Mail On Sunday, Robson said: 'Of the British managers, Martin O'Neill clearly stands out. He's bright, charismatic, experienced and a proven winner.

'Jose's advantage is he knows our football and he would be welcomed back with open arms.Tactically, there is nobody better - I still remember his dossiers at Porto and Barcelona when he worked with me! - and that's important for one-off international games.'

As for Hiddink, the man whose Russia team pipped England for a place in the Euro 2008 finals, Robson said: 'His track record in international football is the best of all the contenders.

'Whereas club managers would need time to adjust - however successful they have been - Guus knows this kind of football inside out.

On Capello, Robson said: 'After years in Spain and Italy, it would be interesting to see how he coped with the mentality of an English player.'

Houllier has extensive experience of the English game after a spell as manager of Liverpool and Robson added: 'His career has received a second wind after he left Liverpool. He won the French League twice with Lyon and I know players such as (Steven) Gerrard look up to him.'

Barwick and the FA's director of football development Sir Trevor Brooking are continuing their consultation process.

FA head of communications Adrian Bevington yesterday confirmed that no individual has yet been approached with a view to offering them the job.

Man Utd 2-1 Sporting Lisbon: Late Ronaldo stunner

Cristiano Ronaldo saved the best until last to down his old club for the second time this season and secure a top seeding in the Champions League knock-out phase for Manchester United.

After his one-man mission to inflict more damage on Sporting Lisbon appeared certain to end in frustration, Ronaldo stepped up to drive home a 25-yard free-kick in the second minute of stoppage time.

The Portuguese outfit must be sick of the sight of the man they nurtured through his formative years.

It was Ronaldo who settled the previous meeting between the sides in September and his sixth goal of United's European campaign will offer Sir Alex Ferguson some much-needed breathing space in his team selection for the final 'dead-rubber' against also-qualified AS Roma in a fortnight.

Given the potentially explosive trip to the Stadio Olimpico comes just five days before a blockbuster Premier League encounter with Liverpool at Anfield, Ferguson wanted his side's Champions League status wrapped up.

The Scot looked like being frustrated, having only Carlos Tevez's leveller to show for their second half efforts after a woeful opening period saw Abel put the visitors in front and had them threatening what would have only been United's eighth home defeat in European competition.
Instead, Ronaldo produced a touch of class when it mattered and not surprisingly, Tomasz Kuszczak was the first one to congratulate him at the final whistle.

Kuszczak's blunder may not be dissected in quite the same manner as Scott Carson's inexplicable failure to keep out Niko Kranjcar's speculative shot at Wembley last week but if anything, the ramifications could be more serious, for the player at least.

Regular number one Edwin van der Sar is close to signing a one-year contract extension and England international Ben Foster has advanced sufficiently in his recovery from cruciate knee ligament surgery to at least be present on United's training ground, even if a first-team appearance is not expected until March.

However, with United out of the Carling Cup and needing to make up points on Arsenal in the Premier League, there is not that much room for experimentation. So, with every opportunity counting for the Poland star, it is little wonder he was left shaking his head in despair as he reflected on his mistake.

Abel deserves plenty of credit for the way he spotted the opening, then curled a superb shot in at the near post with the outside of his left foot from the right touchline.

However, Kuszczak could not escape blame, for it was his blatant anticipation of a cross which provided Abel with the space to finish.

Prior to the goal, the game had been memorable only for the appearance of a rodent sniffing around the Old Trafford pitch.

Abel's effort should have freshened United up, instead they just shrank into their shell and were fortunate Sporting did not double their advantage as Liedson was probably just onside when he was flagged off after turning home Anderson Polga's through ball.

Even Ronaldo became becalmed against his old club after previously appearing to be on a one-man scoring mission, darting through the visitors' defence on three occasions, without finding the finish.

Neither could Louis Saha get a decent connection on his shot when Ronaldo set him up with an impudent back-heeled through ball.

Just as at Bolton on Saturday, too many red shirts operated way below optimum levels and Ferguson must be concerned at the stuttering manner in which side have returned from their international break.

The United boss made his feelings on the first half debacle clear by introducing Ryan Giggs, who celebrates his 34th birthday on Thursday, and Tevez at the interval.

Tevez had the major impact, although United had to wait for their equaliser. Saha, who had an evening to forget, spurned a glorious chance when he delayed far too long after being set up by Ronaldo, while Nemanja Vidic nodded Giggs' corner wide.

The breakthrough eventually came thanks to Patrice Evra's scampering left-wing burst. Tevez knew little about it as Ronaldo's mis-hit shot from Saha's lay-off arrived at his feet but a firm deflection off the South American was enough to see United level.

Miguel Veloso, apparently a Red Devils transfer target, would have impressed most observers with an effective midfield display.

The Portugal international might even have capped his night with a goal too, only for his 20-yard strike to whistle just over.

The unedifying sight of Evra being booked for a blatant dive was not one which would appeal to Ferguson's sporting instincts but in the end Ronaldo gave the home fans something more palatable to remember.

McClaren's Gambles Backfire

So Steve McClaren's stay of execution was to last just five short days.

Try as he might, the soon to be former England manager could not cover up his tactical flaws that have cost this once proud nation their place in the Euro 2008 finals and while the final chapter of his brief and often painful story will go down as the most dramatic games this sparkling new stadium will ever host, its legacy could be catastrophic for the future of English football.

Not even a stunning comeback from two goals behind at the break was enough for McClaren and his team as a 77th minute winner from Mladen Petric condemned England to the international scrapheap and with it, the inquest into the demise of the country who gave football to the world begins in earnest.

The manager's resolution in the face of his demise was impressive, with his determination not to resign both curious and blatantly forlorn after such a setback. 'I will not discuss my future,' he told the media pack, baying for blood after this disastrous evening. 'The time to reflect is in the future and we will do that in the next few days.

'The pain I feel after this defeat is indescribable. We have let the nation down, but I can have no complaints. I said judge me after the 12 game campaign and in the final analysis, we don't deserve to be at the European Championship finals.

'We made too many mistakes in this game and while I stand by my decision to pick Scott Carson in goal, he was at fault for one of those. I was surprised how easily we were beaten because Croatia looked like scoring every time we went forward. Still, as the manager, I take full responsibility for this defeat.'

On a night when a point would do for England, their first half showing was that of a side who were intent on getting their manager sacked, with their so-called 'world class performers' such as Steven Gerrard and Frank Lampard looking more like non-league players having an off-day.
Indeed, it was not until the chief marketing icon of the aforementioned and much lambasted competition made his belated entry at half-time that England began to rally and David Beckham was the only player who deserved better than this embarrassing demise.

Those who have written that this brilliant footballer is merely a walking advertisement in a generation of plastic celebrities fail to appreciate just what he has brought to the English game in the last decade. His mere presence lifted the crowd and his energy and delivery on the right flank was of a quality McClaren's first pick, Shaun Wright-Phillips, can only produce on a PlayStation game.

Beckham's pinpoint pass to set-up Crouch for the equaliser that should have sealed England's qualification was a touch of pure class and it was a shame for the LA Galaxy star that the rest of his team mates were not good enough to capitalise on his enthusiasm and brilliance.

This was Becks' 99th international cap and as he took a bow to all four corners of Wembley at the end, he knew it would probably be his last. England will not be lucky enough to see his like again for some time and the FA should put on a game that ensures he collects the century.

If only the same tribute could be paid to McClaren, whose decision to change his goalkeeper and stick Scott Carson between the sticks for his competitive debut, not to mention his shock move to pick Wright-Phillips ahead of Beckham, ensuring this would be his final game as England coach unless he got the result he needed.

Some may call his tactical switches bold or brave, yet the truth was they were huge gambles against a side who, although already qualified for Euro 2008, were more than capable to denying England the point they required to join them.

The sight of the heavens opening an hour before kick-off and the already appalling Wembley pitch struggling to cope with the soaking it was receiving meant this game had the potential to develop into a lottery and that is the last thing McClaren needed having already gambled so much with his team selection.

So when Niko Kranjcar opted to take a speculative long-range shot after just eight minutes and Carson allowed it to slip through his grasp and into the back of the net, McClaren's heart must have sunk lower than at any point in his brief and often turbulent reign as England boss. England's fate appeared to be sealed as Ivicia Olic waltzed through a defence that had never played together before to double Croatia's lead.

McClaren's move to replace Gareth Barry and Shaun Wright-Phillips with Jermain Defoe and the much-missed Beckham at half-time was an admission that he had got his original starting eleven horribly wrong and it needed just eleven second half minutes to reap rewards.

The mere presence of Beckham lifted the crowd and when Defoe's shirt was pulled in the box, the referee handed England the penalty lifeline they craved. Lampard's spot kick filled Wembley with hope that was never there in the first half and it seemed as if the fairytale comeback could be on.

Then, Beckham made his mark with the pass that set up Crouch's leveller and with that, England appear to have averted disaster. That was until Petric blasted his winner past the helpless Carson and McClaren was forced to finish what will surely be his final press conference as England boss with applause ringing around the room.

You won't be surprised to hear it was not for him as, before he finished talking to the Sunday newspapers, Croatian boss Slaven Bilic entered the room and drew an ovation from the Croat media.

'There is not much wrong with English football,' claimed a polite Bilic. 'This was the toughest group you could have and England were part of an amazing match tonight. We deserved to win, but England played well.

'Still, we proved in this game that we are as good as England and I read a report saying no Croatia player would get into the England team. I say wake up, wake up. Honestly, we showed we are much better than some people think.'

There was some sympathy looking at McClaren as he fronted up to the ultimate failure, but if you put yourself in this big pool, drowning is not an option. The absence of John Terry, Rio Ferdinand, Wayne Rooney and Michael Owen was a hammer blow ahead of this game, but his team selections backfired and for that, he has to be replaced.

Just for the record, the press box was not a scene of joy at the demise of an England coach they have undermined from day one. When push and shove collide, their summer holidays in 2008 and the prestige that goes with reporting on a major tournament was on the line on this soaking Wembley night and while few of them like or respect McClaren, these Englishmen want to see their country succeed.

The tragedy is that while McClaren seemed like the least horrible option compared to Sam Allardyce when Phil Scolari turned down the Football Association's advances in the summer of 2006, he has come up short time and again in a qualifying campaign that was torturous at its beginning and end.

At least the new man who will take charge knows he can't take England any lower.

MAN OF THE MATCH: David Beckham: He alone tried to lift England into the Euro 2008 finals and if this was his final game, he goes out in a blaze of personal glory.

PITCH HORROR: This may be the best stadium in the world in terms of facilities and grandeur, yet the FA have to pay off the vast debt they incurred in its construction so pointless commercial exercises like promoting American football is required. The pitch was a mess after the recent NFL game here and a disgrace to the Wembley brand.

BRIDGE OF SIGHS: Amid the Wembley chaos, left-back Wayne Bridge produced one of the worst performances from an England player in many a year. He even tried to cap his incompetence with a second half own goal as his effort looped onto his Scott Carson's crossbar.

BATTLE OF THE BROLLY: While soppy England coach McClaren sheltered under an umbrella early on, his opposite number from braved the elements. Slaven Bilic showed he was a real man.

CROATIAN VENUM: The Football Association must have felt as if their move to give members of the British military a chance to parade on the pitch prior to kick-off was a guaranteed winner, yet the hoards of visiting fans greeted them with a torrent of abuse and single finger salutes won't have gone down well.

VERDICT: Sympathy for McClaren will be hard to find, yet this was a night when England's players were shown up to be second rate. Gerrard and Lampard were poor throughout and they are the stars expected to shine when their country needs them. Let the post mortem begin.

cold

lalala lalala.hari ini sangat sejuk.nk menaip pun xleh.jari jemari seakan menjadi beku.beku yang tiada taranya. beku yang tak bisa2 dicairkan lagi. kebekuan yang bersarang di jemari itu kian menular ke bahagian otak. beku dan tepu.

aku merasa kangenelistik frantik.

bEaUTiFuL GiRLs

You're way too beautiful girl
That's why it will never work
You'll have me suicidal my little dick, suicidal
When you say it's over
Damn all these beautiful girls
They only wanna do you dirt
They'll have you suicidal, suicidal
When they say it's over

See it started at the park ,used to chill after dark
Oh, when you took my arm, that's when we fell apart
Cause we both thought, that love last forever
They say we're to young, to get ourselves' sprung
Oh we didn't care, we made it very clear
And they also said, that we couldn't last together
See it's very divine, you're one of a kind
But you mush up my mind, you ought to get declined
Oh Lord
My baby is driving me crazy

You're way too beautiful girl
That's why it will never work
You'll have me suicidal, suicidal
When you say it's over
Damn all these beautiful girls
They only wanna do you dirt
They'll have you suicidal, suicidal
When they say it's over

It was back in 99, watching movies all the time
Oh when i went away for doing my first crime
And I never thought, that we was gonna see each other
And then I came out, mommy move me down south
And oh, I was with my girl, who i though was my world
It came out to be, that she wasn't the girl for me
see it's very divine, you're one of a kind
but you mush up my mind, you ought to get declined
oh lord my baby is driving me crazy

You're way too beautiful girl
That's why it will never work
You'll have me suicidal, suicidal
When you say it's over
Damn all these beautiful girls
They only wanna do you dirt
They'll have you suicidal, suicidal
When they say it's over

now we are fussing and now we are fighting
please tell me why, i'm feeling slighted
and i don't know, how to make it better
your dating other guys, your telling me lies
oh i can't believe what i'm seeing with my eyes
i'm losing my mind, and i don't think it's clever

You're way too beautiful girl
That's why it will never work
You'll have me suicidal, suicidal
When you say it's over
Damn all these beautiful girls
They only wanna do you dirt
They'll have you suicidal, suicidal,suicidallll

soRrY, BlaMe iT oN mE...-aKoN-

as life goes on i’m starting to learn more and more about responsibility
i realize everything i do is affecting the people around me
so i want to take this time out to apologize for things i have done
and things that have not occurred yet
and the things they don’t want to take responsibility for

i’m sorry for the times i left you home
i was on the road and you were alone
i’m sorry for the times that i had to go
i’m sorry for the fact that i did not know
that you were sitting home just wishing we
could go back to when it was just you and me
i’m sorry for the times i would neglect
i’m sorry for the times i disrespect

i’m sorry for the wrong things that i’ve done
i’m sorry i’m not always there for my son
i’m sorry for the fact that i'm not aware
that you can’t sleep at night when i am not there
because i am in the streets like everyday
sorry for the things that i did not say
like how you are the best thing in my world
and how i'm so proud to call you my girl

(bridge)
i understand that there are some problems
and i am not too blind to know
all the pain you kept inside you
even though you might not show
if i can apologize for being wrong
then it’s just a shame on me
i’ll be the reason for your pain and you can put the blame on me

(chorus)
you can put the blame on me (4x)
said you can put the blame on me (3x)
you can put the blame on me

sorry for the things that he put you through
and all the times you didn’t know what to do
sorry that you had to go and sell those packs
just trying to stay busy till you heard from dad
and you would rather be home with all your kids
as one big family with love and bliss
and even though pops treated us like kings

he got a second wife and you didn’t agree
he got up and left you there all alone
i’m sorry that you had to do it on your own
i’m sorry that i went and added to your grief
i’m sorry that your son was once a thief
i’m sorry that i grew up way too fast
i wish i would’ve listened and not be so bad
i’m sorry your life turned out this way
i’m sorry that the feds came and took me away

(bridge)

i’m sorry that it took so long to see
they were dead wrong trying to put it on me
i’m sorry that it took so long to speak
but i was on tour with gwen stefani
i’m sorry for the hand that she was dealt
for the embarrassment that she felt
just a little young girl trying to have fun
her daddy should never let her out that young
i’m sorry for club zen getting shut down
i hope they manage better next time around
how was i to know she was underage
in a 21 and older club they say
why doesn’t anybody wanna take blame
verizon backed out disgracing my name
i’m just a singer trying to entertain
because i love my fans i’ll take that blame
even though the blame’s on you (3x)
i’ll take that blame from you

and you can put that blame on me (2x)
you can put that blame on me
and you can put that blame on me

wHeN yOu'Re GoNe...

the old man in this clip really loves his wife a lot..damn..so sedih lah..

@!%*#~!!

Ya live your life like it's a comaSo won't you tell me why we'd wannaWith all the reasons you give it'sIt's kinda hard to believeBut who am I to tell you that I've seen any reason why you should stayMaybe we'd be better off without you anywayYou got a one way ticketOn your last chance rideGotta one way ticketTo your suicideGotta one way ticketAn there's no way out aliveAn all this crass communicationThat has left you in the coldIsn't much for consolationWhen you feel so weak and oldBut is home is where the heart isThen there's stories to be toldNo you don't need a doctorNo one else can heal your soulGot your mind in submissionGot your life on the lineBut nobody pulled the triggerThey just stepped asideThey be down by the waterWhile you watch 'em waving goodbyeThey be callin' in the morningThey be hangin' on the phoneThey be waiting for an answerWhen you know nobody's homeAnd when the bell's stopped ringingIt was nobody's fault but your ownThere were always ample warningsThere were always subtle signsAnd you would have seen it comin'But we gave you too much timeAnd when you said that no one's listeningWhy'd your best friend drop a dimeSometimes we get so tired of waitingFor a way to spend our timeAn "It's so easy" to be social"It's so easy" to be coolYeah it's easy to be hungryWhen you ain't got shit to loseAnd I wish that I could help youWith what you hope to findBut I'm still out here waitingWatching reruns of my lifeWhen you reach the point of breakingKnow it's gonna take some timeTo heal the broken memoriesThat another man would needJust to survive

hidup ini bagai lampu lilin

bola itu bulat.
tp apsal malaysia sayur?
10 goals conceded in 2 matches.
cih.
maybe we're not up yet for the asian challenge.
tiger cup pon x lepas..
but the thing is i am an ardent supporter of msian team.
so i have to support the team.
and manchester united.
until the day i die.
otherwise..who else?
emmanuel adebayor? nelson mandela? optimus prime?
"transform and roll out!"
ceng ceng jengg trr trr butt bhoot thub thub keceburr klong.
(sound effect transform jd kete)
...

there's so much thing that i'd like to write about.
tp malas kot.
tah
k

hidup ibarat roda.
kadang2 kat atas.
hepi la kan,seronok.
tp kadang2 boleh ke bawah.
mase tu..
sape yg ada?

hehe.

MASUM 2007

Finally, my cricket career has come to an end. For 12 years, i've been playing the game, and wonderfully enchanted by the sport itself. after all, it's a gentlemen's game ;)

my final farewell to the game wasn't ended with flying colours, though. we were beaten twice by UNITEN and UIA. as the home team, we failed to make it to the semifinal. my batting was quite disastrous, caught at the boundary line by Raj (i really thought it's gonna cross the line ah, cih :p) during the first game with UNITEN. and even worse got bowled out with 0 run the next day against UIA. damn. i got the 'DUCK'.hahahahah. never in my playing career got duck before. and i got it in my final game. ceh, what a story lah. nonetheless, we fielded superbly. we attacked the opponent with good bowlings. thanks to our spinners, pak lan and amir. unfortunately, due to our poor batting scores, they reached the target score easily.

i'm still proud of our team. despite lack of training and experiences, we still managed to play happily as a team. of winning would be a bonus. especially to our coach Mr. Kushan. he's done a great job in coaching us. given more time, i believe we can improve better. we only had two practice matches before the tournament and they're definitely not enough for us. our key player also got MIA. in the last minute he suggested few names, but it's already too late. if he gave the names earlier then it'd be a different story.

the most hardworking man in the team was Shankar. i'm really grateful to have him to assist me. experience wise, he should've been the captain. but he's really a great guy, letting me to grab the chance. thanks for everything bro! next year the captaincy task will definitely fall in ur arms ;)

so i'd like to list down all the players names and jot down few things bout them. coz i really enjoyed playin with u guys. so bad that we've lost, but let's take it as a valuable lesson for the future.

1) shankar - the vice captain, and the last minute wicket keeper. he he. u did well as a WK. we should've paired as the opening batsmen la. but then it's Mr Kushan decision to play u with Imran. thanks for all ur help throughout the games!

2) amir - or amir jambu as nipi called him :p.hahahhahah. archrival to shankar. hahaha ade jeee bende yg nk digaduhkan depa bedue nih. he's my roomate during the tournament. nice guy really he is. jgn jelesss aa mer. 3 org bebbb hahahahhahaha :D. i'll always remember his wicked and sinister laughs. taun depan ko batting betul2 weh. rugi mati awal2. the team needs u ;)

3) paklan - our LEGEND. hahahahahhaaa. 26 runs during first game. took boundary with harbinder's bowl. got 4 or 5 wickets with his off spin. thanks for comin la bro. dunno what'll happen if u didn't come. like i said before, ur experiences are truly monumental and help the team a lot. sori la wehh aku makan kfc ngn fida malam tu. aku tatau dooooo. x plan pon. ko jugakk yg kate nk makan ngn nipi dulu. klu aku tau aku makan sorg2 jee hahahahhahaa :p

4) nipi - the choki-choki guy. true fan of benson's :p. our lead singer during the Malam persembahan..mmm u got to try harder boy. i noticed that u're getting more confident when batting, but still need more training kay. be a leg spinner! our team needs one. in time, i'm definitely sure u can bowl dangerously to the batsmen ;)

5) jawi- ooo ni paling kaya skali dlm team nih.hahahahaa.jd sukerelawan yee. hehe. i'm sorry that u've not given the chance to bowl. ur bowlings are good, but we had to try other option. besides, i'm aware that ur deliveries might go short at the middle of the pitch. that's why i didn't let u bowl. however, with more training i believe u can improve ur bowling line and u definitely has the quality to be the opening bowler :)

6) ben - the only first year student from eng. campus. clearly we're running out of players in usm.my batch got kuman, peja, paklan, boss, iqbal and daus. the next batch even better with pedot, karthik, jiwer and shauki. so ur task is to recruit more players next year. otherwise, we won't have a team.

7) salman - hohohoohho old timer nih. hhee. thanks gak for playing this year. ur batting still good just like the old days. however ur bowl sucks man! hahaha. 30 plus runs in 4 overs aa? hehehe. like u said la, try be a spinner. i think that suits u well. hehe.

well i got the other 7 names to list down, but already sleepy lah. pendek kate, thanks laa kat 7 org tu. gobi, k-rek, fizi, imran gemuk, imran kurus, shahzad, amir lutut. thanks so much for playing.. and not forgetting my number one supporter kak ayu, tenkiuu22. thanks for comin to see the games. kuciwa laa x dpt masuk semi, x dpt la mc d :p. to jita, thanks gakk yee. pog dah swing kuat2 tp lari tak laju la.hahahhaha :D. to fida, makasih jd sukarelawan utk kriket ye. sian lak kene tgk game yg boring ni. hehe. masuk taun due nnt blaja rajin2 lagi ekk ;)

ok la.tu je kot. dunno when the next entry will be. mebi i'm gonna be busy the next few days.or weeks.or months.haha.dunno lah. till then...caloo

kerje kerjee

today i met two old friends from usm. tengku n peja. to my surprise, peja hasn't changed at all. but now he drive a vios alright ;). this guy once influenced me a lot. or was it the other way around? hahaha. no matter lah, we both influenced each other. i remembered riding with his bike to classes. at that time his bike was like a Merc CLK to us. hehee. he's also gifted with music i think. it's soo easy to teach him playing guitar coz he'd learn fast. just now i thought him a song from Muse and he capable to play it beautifully.haha.peja2. next time i wanna pow ur vios lah :D.

while tengku seems to maintain himself. still 'botak' like the old days.hehee. but now he has a new sony ericson hpone. a positive progress la.hahaa. we chatted a lot. both peja n tengku told lots of stories bout their work. somehow i saw them quite happy with what they're doing now. but that's the purpose of four years studying in usm isn't it?. after graduate, go find job. gile ape tak bekerje?. somehow u have to work la kan. klu tak keje nk bg anak bini makan ape? pasir?batu? hahaha. tetibe aku rase takut plakkk nk mule bekerje.huhuhu.tah la.

aiii i really thought i could write some more, but suddenly sooo sleepy lah. tomorrow got lots of things to do.hmm.. so i think that's all for tonite. tdo2. hehe. papaii.

cricket and its influence on me

there you go, a straight forward title.well cricket has been my favourite game for years. still, i'm dare not saying i'm a very good player. i'm just an average player i guess. hmm, let's look at my early history on this game called cricket.

it was on 1995 when i first entered SEMESTA. as a fresh junior, we all were attached with "abang angkat" which their primary duty was to look after us. some did well, but mostly served it as a school order. nevertheless, my abang angkat happened to be a cricker player for the school. at that time, my school dominated the east coast region by having lots of good players. musfazli, najib, sani, ace, afat, wan aizad, azwan to name a few. there were all very good and skillful players. so, i started to go to the field every evening just to watch them play. then i started to join their training along with my other friends.

1996 was my first try for MSSM. me and my friends were selected to represent Pahang and the tournament was held in KL. it was a great experience for me, as we were able to play against players from other states. the difference in skills and power was definitely huge. we were beaten easily by Kedah and then KL. but being our first experience, we took the loss in gaiety. then started in 1997, i got my first medal for MSSP. at that time our school was still a big force in the state. for 3 years in a row we're the champion of Pahang. but i missed some experience playing in Piala Perdana Menteri (PPM), which later called as HKSBP. i had to enter different compettition. but i never regret it, thanks teacher :). only in my final year, 1999 i had the opportunity to play in the HKSBP tournament but we came out as runner's up. we lost in the final to SMS Dungun. and that was my final game for high school years.

well u can see that i have a quite memorable experiences with this game. it's not that i'm a great cricket player, but it's just something that i grew fond to. actually i'm always a lousy player, even till now. my bowling is still not consistent and my batting is just average. maybe i'm a defensive type and the score was always low. but thank god, i've never imagine that i'll have the opportunity to play again in university. next month will be the second time i play for MASUM. still, lately i'm quite disturbed when someone told me not to play anymore. it's sad really, because it's the only thing that i'm actually good at. mind you, not everyone has the opportunity to play this game rite? it is also sad if that person doesn't really realize how improtant this thing to me and how i love the game so much.aii..there, there i begin to moan now.hehee. well, i think i just pray that i can participate in my last tournament. i don't know if i ever get the chance to play again after leaving the university. whatever it is, cricket is a great game ;) hehe...

huha

last few days were the best moments in my life. i think so. why? humm that one i think i shall keep it to myself lah.he he he :p.one thing for sure, those moments were simply irreplacable. but i hope it will continue, for as long as i live :). howeverpong, last night wasn't quite good for me, particularly, and for all man u fans generally. damn it. we lost to pompey? pompwho? stomp those pompous arses, so to speak. hahhah. own goal from ferdinand. aiyaa. rai couldn't help himself from showing his pleasure for that result. hero kalah dulu la rai. ah ah ah.now the lead has been cut to 3 point. another loss for man u would be a fatal blow for the premiership hope.still, sir alex remains defiant, and believe his team still has what it takes to win the premiership.as well as the champions league.well, 2-1 defeat against roma.they have to play better for the second leg.otherwise.. well, u know;)

k la.gotta mark all these assignments.chioww.

"glory glory man united~"

dumb

uu wee uu laalala.jeng jejejengg greengg22. oh what the hell. just testing the availability of this account. i've already forgotten the password. guess i'll forget the url next. sheesh.

so, do i want to talk bout something?anything?for today?..nahh. this keyboard is too damn stupid already that makes it so difficult for me to type. so i think i'll type something with a better keyboard later on.

so long, farewell.

*she fuckin hates mee~~yeaahh she fuckin hates mee lalalala~~ i tried too hard and she tore my feelin like i had none~~and ripped 'em awayy~~~teeneneewwuuu ewwwuwweowww~~~*
-puddle of mudd-
-she hates me-

hope and faith

don't get confused.it's not about the tv series Hope and Faith. a story about two sisters whereby the younger sister is definitely drop dead gorgeous. huhu. i just happen to feel writing on this topic. why? maybe because i had put a high hope on something, and it's granted by God. i'm definitely happy. but, what if, my hope does not come true? what if, my undivided faith was for nothing? hmm.. i'd be really frustrated i guess. but everything happens for a reason. well, i should be really grateful that i got what i wanted so much today :).

my flu is getting better. huhu. i guess lot of sleeping help to ease my problem. no more wiping nose tonight.hehe.so i think i can try to do some work tonite. my data need to be finalized for the appendix. God, it's a tedious job. gta mentioned earlier that there is Malam Bintang in Main Campus tonite. maybe she's already went there and i can ask her about the competition.

aaii..suddenly i'm short of ideas la. td byk sgt nk tulis. huhuhu. xpe lah. till my fingers meet this new stolen from the school Dell's keyboard( haha) again, jyaaa.

flu..demit

one thing i hate about this blogging is whenever i enter the publish post button and it doesn't really publish it. fuck off. i hate it so much. it's like all my efforts were lost effortlessly (fuck, does the sentence makes any sense?) anyway, i've wrote something about my bowling game last few days with remy, ashraf n postol but it was not published due to the stupid dickhead motherfucker internet problem. before i start filling this entry with more vulgar words, let's just end the issue by saying that i broke my personal bowling record with 156 pinfalls.okeh.fullstop.

flu..right...spell it loud..t.e.n.s.i.o.n = flu~!! way the go dick. can apply for the spelling bee compettition. naah..sounds different, but the meaning's the same. this whole day i'm struggling to wipe my nose. thanks to kak ayu, i have 2 large tissue boxes here with me. the soft white ones. otherwise i wouldn't know how to deal with my nose. this flu problem has already spurned my plan to go to ipoh today. shit la. otherwise i can makan2 free la kat ipoh. shit. now i can only lay myself on bed, wiping my nose. couldn't do a damn thing. it comes together with dizzy head. the best i can do is jot down this miserable entry right now. sheesh..a perfect weekend lah..

so, there goes my ipoh trip.demit. what the hell, i think i just rest myself in this cosy room. maybe practice some more songs. yeah, by the way, i completed learning the solo for an oasis song - the importance of being idle. it's a nice song, considering the fact that i am a fan of this band. hehe. but lately they haven't really came out with real good stuff. i guess it's all in the past. still they're still one of my favourite.

aii couldn't stop wiping my nose. ok la, better go solat now. maybe i'll jot down few more things later. till then, papaii.

untitled 2

i'm about to lay myself on bed actually.but i kinda thought i'd like to jot down few more things. u see, the thing is, i really don't see myself as a good writer or story teller. maybe it's because i'm lacking the capacity of constructing sentences using correct vocabulary. so, most of time, i couldn't deliver my message well, using sentences. it'll be like some sorta bragging, winding and pointless (exactly what i'm doing now..) huhu. nonetheless, i don't give a damn. haha.

so, what should i write about now?.. the previous entry, i did mention about displeasure and disappointment. hmm..still don't want to talk about it yet. or will never. because i realized that, everytime i brought up something, it'll be an endless issue. be it small or big thing, it'll end up just the same. so i becoming to feel that there's nothing really that i can do, and hope that things will get better. pretty blunt isn't it? naive some may say. but that's the situation.heh.oops. i beginning to reveal my displeasure and disappointment.hohoho trapped by my own conscience :p

all right, enought 'bout that. maybe i'll write about the movie i just watched in HBO Channel. Ocean's Twelve. my sister said that the prequel, Ocean's Eleven is much more better. i didn't know that as i haven't watched both of them. so gotta find the first movie.hehe. The movie was good, but it's not too stylo lah when danny and his team beat the night fox by making the deal earlier with le marc. i saw it as cheating. or cheap win. or whatever u may call it. anyway, i'm still gonna find the eleven's later.cause i like brad pitt's movies :D :D.

ghost rider is out already. great trailers, but i hope so does the movie. gonna visit pitot and her newborn baby tomorrow with dongek n fahmi. and after that we may shoot to OU for the movie.heh.lost khairi already. that dude, fahmi and myself are the movies gang. we'd go to the cinemas, everytime new movies were released since we're in high schools.bet he'll watch movies with his wife from now on.huhu.well, that's life. i can never expect every single little things happen to please myself. he's already married, got somebody special in his life, somebody he wants to spend his time with and somebody he wants to share his whole life with. he's leading a new life, his own life, and i don't have the rights to intefere, rite? so we just move on with our life ;). it's not a big problem really. humm, sometimes i really think that i have to learn the facts 'bout life the hardest way. the truth usually hurts. but don't dwell on it. cause it will kills u.destroys u.make ur life miserable. so, don't let it be that way. we need to live our short lives happily. otherwise, u're making no sense. haha.

no no no...i starting to bebel again. so much for teh advice lah, diri sindri pon x betul :p. tah, kadang2 kongsi pengalaman boleh bantu org lain kot.indirectly.hmm ok la.gotta wake up early tomorrow.huhu.calos.

untitled

yesterday i went to khairi's wedding. yep, my dear buddy is married already. i went along with fahmi, apis, izzah and suprisingly the son of tan sri musa hassan, kid-day. i thought he's still in U.S., but he went there just for a while and now working in Malaysia. well it thought it was appropriate for him to attend khairi's wedding as we all haven't met for quite a while. the wedding was great. keri and his wife looked so happy. i wish they live happily ever after :)

aiyak.i was certain i have something to write just now. something that reflects displeasure and disappointment. but, come to think again, it's not worth it. why make fuss over small matters? everything happens for a reason. i guess we just need to know how to adapt. hmm. yep, that's all ;).

damn! i lost my previous blog

huhu, yes it's true. my blog which has the address http://spentotajaib.blogspot.com is gone. but not to worry, setting up a new blog just take a minute. but still the sentimental value attached to the blog is incomparable and irreplacable. sheesh. anyway, i'll try to move one with my new one, http://stokinhikmat.blogspot.com. hehe. dunno what to write yet, but hope u all enjoy reading whatever it is in this blog :)

with that i thank you.